I try not to do these “What’s the Tea” updates too frequently because I know that most of you are here for design tips and recipes. Occasionally, life warrants another update, so please bear with me.
Several weeks ago I told you that my Gram had a stroke. Unfortunately, she was not able to recover, and I am deeply saddened to tell you that she passed away a little over a week ago. She spent time in the hospital and a nursing home, and her condition was up and down. In her final days, we fed her, held her hand, hugged and kissed her, and said prayers. She struggled in the end. As hard as it was to say goodbye, it was time. Her service was held two years to the day after my grandfather (her husband) passed away.
As much as I’d love to chat about my grandparents right now, I’d be just a babbling mess of tears, so I’ll save my stories of them for future posts. I did, however, want to give you an update and thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers.
It probably goes without saying, that May was a busy and trying month. I’m very happy that June is here. The sun is shining, and although Gram is no longer with us, I have another angel watching over me as I try to figure out my life.
Just this past weekend, I came back to my somewhat abandoned apartment in Pittsburgh, and now I’m finally starting to settle in. (I share daily updates on Instagram Stories … if you’re interested.) My first day back here was tough. The cats came with me this time, and watching them struggle to adjust to their new environment broke my heart. Coupled with the recent loss of Gram, it wasn’t much fun around here.
However, five days in, things are getting better. The cats are adapting to the new space which makes me so happy. And I seem to be adjusting, too.
I am genuinely happy to be living here. As I drive the streets and walk the sidewalks of Pittsburgh, I think of all the things I want to do and can do. All the places I want to eat and all of the experiences I want to create. It’s almost overwhelming but in the best possible way.
I am feeling a little pressure, however. (Which is mostly of my own making) I want everything to happen at once, even though I know that is totally unrealistic. Time seems so fleeting, and I feel like I’m running out of it.
On top of that, I’m also anxious about making friends, I’m nervous about going on dates. I’m trying to push myself into new adventures, but at the same time I need and want to feel comfortable. (Or does comfort need to go out the window at this point?) How does a person do these things in his mid-30s? Ack! I should have all of this taken care of by now. Anywho, for now, I’m taking things day-by-day, moment-by-moment, and just hoping for the best.
I have made great progress in my apartment, however. As you can see, I’ve found several pieces to start making this place feel like home. I promise to whip up a mini-home tour for you soon. Be warned, however, that this is the only section that’s somewhat presentable. Behind the camera, my TV is sitting on the box it came in. Not cute.
In other news, I need to get my food intake back on track. Living in the city doesn’t mean I’m on a permanent vacation where my diet can consist mostly of cinnamon rolls, pasta, cheese, and multiple glasses of rosé. With the progress I’ve made in losing weight this year, the last thing I want to do is backslide. Thankfully, I have several farmers markets nearby, lots of places to run, and a gym in my building. I truly have no excuse.
While I’m certain I have more life updates, I think that’s about enough for today. Before I sign off, though, I have a quick question for you. Do you enjoy these more personal / working-through-life style posts? I ask because I always have lots of thoughts rolling around in my head. I’m happy to share them, but I know this can easily verge on oversharing. I’m curious about what you might like, so any feedback is greatly appreciated.
Hope you’re having a wonderful week, my friends!