Oh goodness. I’ve been trying to put together a post for this page for more than a week. I kid you not. I have three drafts written. What happens is I get several paragraphs in and the post ends up being this sad rant. Even though I created this part of IBC to share that type of post, I also don’t want this space to become a pit of sadness.

So, being in a different headspace at the moment, I figured it was a good time to pop in. To summarize the three drafts: I was trying to explain the fact that the past 18 months have been sort of crappy for me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve had some amazing experiences and opportunities. For instance, I’m out of my mind grateful for the the life I get to live. Seriously. Completely humbled. (I even touched on this briefly in my 2015 recap on IBC.) Now, I could list and complain about all the things that have been crappy this past year or so, but that wouldn’t do me or you any good. In all honesty, it really doesn’t matter. The last thing I want is for you to “feel bad” for me. Please, don’t feel bad for me.

Because what I’ve determined is that I only have myself to blame. For a long time I’ve done a really good job at complaining about things. And while these things may be complaint worthy, this tactic is clearly not getting me anywhere. And having you feel bad for me won’t get me anywhere. What I really need is a swift kick in the rear.

(And please don’t take that the wrong way. I totally love and appreciate your sweet messages and kind words. Of course, I love every one, and they certainly make my heart happy and bring a smile to my face.)

For a long time I’ve been waiting for someone or something to “rescue me.” And the greatest lesson that I’ve learned over the past year is that isn’t going to happen. If I want something to change, I just need to change it. If I’m unhappy on my current path, I need to try another.

So basically, I’m just at this point where I need a life makeover. As much as I love my home and town, lately I’ve been feeling a little stuck here. And maybe “stuck” isn’t the right word. I could say I’ve “outgrown” this place, but that’s not right either because at their core, my town, my family, and my friends are awesome. Basically, I need something more. I haven’t been in a relationship since I moved home eight years ago. While, I mostly do fine on my own (I’m an extroverted introvert.), my heart is just aching for something or someone. And while I realize that not all relationships are perfect, and that we shouldn’t “need” someone to complete us, I still kind of want to give it a try, and it’s just not happening here. And it’s not just that. I also miss the cultural and opportunities of a larger area. Call me crazy, but I love little coffee shops, funky stores, outdoor concerts, etc. – and those things just aren’t here.

I’m not saying that I want to pick up and move. But maybe there’s an opportunity out there where I can live here part time and somewhere else the rest of the time. The best of both worlds. I know that might sound too cold to be true, but a guy can dream. And the first part of making a dream come true is putting it out into the universe, right?

However, it’s more than location and connection that needs to change. As you long-time readers are well aware, I’m a heart-on-my-sleeve kinda guy. I assumed that my skin would get thicker, and I have become less chicken-hearted over the years, but I think the opposite is happening. Lately, I tend to take things very personally and get hurt way too easily. And while some things are justifiable, and we shouldn’t accept less than we deserve, I think that I could do better if just let criticism and snarky comments roll off my back.

Does all of that make sense? Again, I’m only scratching the surface here, but hopefully you get where I’m coming from.

I also wanted to mention that things may slow down on IBC for the next few weeks with only 2 or 3 posts per week. I’m super excited to be working with a cruise line again, so I’m heading off on a cruise in the very near future. I will be preparing content in advance, but it definitely won’t make for 4 or 5 posts per week. While there will be content on IBC during my time away, I’m also thinking about popping in here on Behind the Charm to do a bit of journaling while I’m away. Something casual. I’m not making any promises, but be sure to check back in.

Anyway, I decided to go on the cruise alone because I’m hoping that it will give me some time to reflect, think, and make a game plan for the future. As a creative person, It’s incredibly challenging (for me at least) for me to be inspiring when I’m bummed out or when my brain is full of so much garbage that I can’t think freely. And I know that sounds oddly close to complaining, but it’s really not. It’s simply the truth. My hope is that some time away will provide clarity and allow me to figure out the best way to move forward.

I’m honestly not quite sure what I’m trying to say here or what my point is with all of this, but I’m ready and excited for a change. Without all the icky / complain-y details, I hope that better explains where I am these days. If you have questions, thoughts, or advice feel free to keep the conversation going in the comments or shoot me an email. Above all, thanks for reading.

Until next time.

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Welcome to my new little space on Inspired by Charm . I’m calling it Behind the Charm. What is it exactly? Let me explain.

Blogging has changed a bit since I started more than seven years ago. Blogs in general have changed, and so has IBC. What started as a fun hobby is now my full-time career. I am humbled to call this space my home and my job, and I couldn’t be happier. The switch from hobby to career has been incredible and life changing in the best possible way.

Naturally, though, with every wonderful change, there are also a few not-so-wonderful things. Because IBC has become somewhat of a business, I’ve cut back on those more personal, reflective, and deeper (and sometimes TMI) posts. The posts that were a bit more journal-like. The posts where I bitched a bit and you lifted me up with your comments. While I obviously try to inject every IBC post with personality, a bit of backstory, or some anecdote, I do miss having the chance to be a bit more laid-back and carefree.

Now, I know what you’re probably thinking, “Michael, this is your blog, why don’t you write more of those posts? Who cares?” I hear you. I guess I just don’t want to mix business with pleasure. Meaning, IBC has become this place you visit for inspired ideas, recipes, project, etc. Not where you read about the things that keep me up at night. But the thing is, I miss having a place to dump the chaos (both happy and sad) that’s rolling around in my head. Does that make sense?

Now, I know that some of you out there just want all of these posts together and some of you couldn’t care less about my personal life. (Don’t worry, I don’t blame you.) Knowing that I can’t please everyone, I gave the situation some thought and came up with what I believe to be a pretty good solution. And that solution is Behind the Charm (BTC).

So, how will this work? Well, BTC will live on Inspired by Charm, but can only be accessed by clicking on the “Behind the Charm” link / image in the sidebar. If you use a blog reader like Feedly, Bloglovin’, Feedburner, etc., BTC posts will not appear. They will also not show up on the homepage or in the archives section of the blog. In essence, it’s a blog within a blog. So, if you are interested in the more personal posts, you’ll have to do a little work (Thanks in advance.) and click on that link every so often.

Oh, and just to clarify, Behind the Charm is a play on “Behind the Scenes.” It’s not Behind the Charm, a sad and tragic Lifetime pseudo movie featuring Sally Field

You’re probably also wondering what you’ll find in BTC and when you can expect it. Well, at this point I’m not 100% sure. (Shocking. Ha!) But, I will tell you what I know. This is a place for me to vent and share about more personal things. It might be a lesson learned or something that ticked me off. It could be a place to share a funny video or a forum where I ask for help / advice. How often? Well, probably once a week, but I’m not sure. Whenever I need it. Should you expect a lot of beautifully shot and edited photos? Probably not, but maybe a few.

Now I know some of you are still thinking, “Seriously, just put these posts in with the rest.” And I get it; part of me is thinking that, too. But, I’m really wanting to try something new, and I’m looking forward to having the freedom to share whatever I want. I really hope that makes sense. And honestly, if it doesn’t, there’s no need for you to click back over here. That’s the beauty of BTC! See, I’m a genius. *insert eye roll here*

So that’s that. Generally, I don’t like making big proclamations for fear that they will fall flat. However, this is new, I’m really excited about it, and life is full of risks. Why not take another? Plus, I wanted you to know that this little space is here.

I hope you like, appreciate, and understand this idea. And if you don’t, that’s okay. too.

Until next time.

Welcome to my new little space on Inspired by Charm . I’m calling it Behind the Charm. What is it exactly? Let me explain. Blogging has changed a bit since I started more than seven years ago. Blogs in general have changed, and so has IBC. What started as a fun hobby is now my […]




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